I was tired...not getting enough sleep consistently.
I was weary...of the tasks that were never getting checked off the list.
I was disappointed...of who I thought I should be and who I am not.
I was lonely...after a week of vacation with my husband.
So easily my focus became me instead of my Savior. I tipped toward self-dependence and self-pity.
I did not ask God what He had in mind for today and how I could walk with His Spirit. I did not listen to what He was saying through His Spirit or His Word.
I don't think He was upset that I was tired, weary, disappointed or lonely, but I know He wanted to be my LIFE today. I know He wanted me to
know He was with me. I know He wanted to give me Life, Direction and Purpose.
However, I was too busy trying to figure out ways to make my life better circumstantially.
What I really needed was to sit at His feet and ask and receive forgiveness, strength and wisdom.
I needed Him.
He was faithful and used my enjoyment of reading the blogs of other families to draw me back to Him. He gently pulled my face to His and asked me to focus on Him.
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this storyHebrews 12:1-3
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. 2 Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.
Thank You Lord for loving me so much that you bring me back to You over and over again!